Think of yourself as a vessel, a cup. Don't try to guess what the Master will pour into you before he pours. Pray it is the Master who pours. Then be willing to accept whatever message He wishes to fill you with. It's His to fill. You only receive.
The path between the natural and the supernatural -- between evil and good -- is not such an easy path. It's usually accomplished with things like death. With tormenting. Why do you suppose Christianity waves a cross on its flag? Do you know how cruel the cross was? You would think there might be a simpler, more humane means for God to bring about the death of His son. Before fruit can grow, a seed must die. Before a child is born, a mother must wail.